Shit Ton of Lemons!

Thursday internal alarm clock went off around 3:30 AM, thank you “lack of sleep” medication side affect. I think at this point my body is accustomed to the less sleep….. don’t get me wrong it craves sleep, like I crave a venti soy chai latte but just can’t always get what you want. (I would be totally fine with more Starbucks drive-throughs though!)

First to get out, the door is always my teenage daughter with a bus pick up time of 7:40 AM. Last night, I was dumb enough or just to tiered to argue and player the deal or no deal teenage forced “game” upon parents. She wanted to stay up to watch some crazy ass reality tv show and some small sympathetic part of my brain said “sure” as long as you promise to get up on your own by setting your alarm. I do not want to be screaming like a banshee upstairs to wake you up. Guess what, her ass didn’t get out of bed and at 715 I’m at the bottom of the stairs, screaming. As she’s finally walking out the door, I make sure to yell behind her, “that’s the last time you’ll be staying up extra late and promising me that you’re getting up on time no more reality TV for you“ to which of course she had some nasty teenage inappropriate comment back.  I slammed the door closed while making sure to embarrassingly wish her a fabulous day at school and profess my undying love for her. (Gotta embarrass her while I can!)

Next up was the little redhead who came downstairs to cuddle  and of course asked for YouTube. What is the obsession with these young children and YouTube. My major was theater in college and I couldn’t freaking come up with Miss Rachel, Cowboy Dan or Blippi like characters?!  I really missed my calling within that theatrical industry. I can wear overalls and suspenders just as well as anyone else…..maybe there is still time. I think my signature look would include a kick ass hat and funky sneakers; I’ll add it to my goals for another day or most likely lifetime.

Wow, I’m all over the place tonight…i apologize for my lack of story telling organization. I should have started off by sharing that myself and my son have been hacking up a lung past few days and especially last night. This time of year for my sons asthma is always full of dramatic illness with accompanied ER visits for steroid shots but, I thought we had it under control ……nothing crazy. I was in Dr mode using all the meds and nebulizer….. shit I was feeling like I had this asthma mom crap under control.

Anyway, I digress. The main point of is we both woke up feeling like total shit and I couldn’t get him or I to stop coughing. A call to the pulmonologist it was for an appointment at 6pm!

Turns out this boy gave me walking pneumonia, not just a chest infection.🤦🏻‍♀️ Apparently it’s the most popular illness to have…. All the rage right now.(Not exactly how the Dr expressed its popularity) For him with asthma and my sarcoid mixed with CHF as well as the methotrexate lowering my immunity….. we are one hot mess express. Needless to say, Tom decided to sleep on the couch this evening while my 4-year-old and I nursed each other back to a passable state of health🤣.

This is one day full of sour lemons! Honestly, I feel like lemons are being thrown at my head lately;  I’m a messed up carnival game way past its prime….. knock the clown down and win a prize! (Obviously, I’m the creepy 80’s wooden clown)

All I can do is keep pushing onward. Keep fighting the battle and trying to be a good mom, wife, and decent human being. I know lately I can be a real piece of shit due to the high dosage of steroids as well as my emotional rollercoaster due to medications.

Oh, and the fact that when I look in the mirror, I see my vast round steroid face staring back is seriously depressing. If you know me, then you’re well aware that before my diagnosis, I lost a lot of weight. His steroid roundness does not instill confidence! I now purposely avoid mirrors in all locations.

Thanks to my loved ones who continue to stick around. If anyone has natural health tips for pneumonia or to boost immunity, comment here, text, or reach out! I’m open to ideas, even if they seem insane….. I’m so far past that at this point in time, my willingness to try the out-of-the-ordinary may frighten some people.