Home Sweet Home!

I clicked my magic slippers together and around 730pm last night I arrived home! Gave the kids hugs and thank god for all got my dirty ass in the shower. Omg, I can’t even describe how feeling clean again truly felt…..magical!

Set up my “medicine station” right next to my bed, sorted my pills (long ass job) and then finally crawled into bed to watch a movie with Briggsy. He was laying on me and kept saying, “mommy I love you so much!” My heart grew last night being back home. At one point I got up to go fill my water bottle and he flipped out, thinking I was leaving again, broke my heart. This disease needs to be put in its dang place, so I can be the mama bear I miss being for my kids. Hopefully, between the doctors and new opinions I am getting the weed fill path will start getting chopped the hell down!

Any other moms ever come home from several days “away” and the house is like a war zone?! I know Tom has been running around like a chicken with his head cut off while I’ve been at LIJ, even taking Briggs into Manhattan for a big modeling shoot. So, I bit my tongue…..kids are alive, fed, went to school all week, did homework, made all of their afterschool activities; more then most dads could manage. So, I shut the f*** up and will remain thankful.

This weekend is for recovery. Making sure to rest, medicate and in between get my ass up, walk around and complete some chores. Apparently, I have to build my lung capacity back up all while I’m hacking a lung up….. twisted medical world. I ordered some groceries to start really working on lowering my inflammation through diet, which I have heard can help the sarcoid or at least maybe tame the beast. At this point I’m open to any and all recommendations, nothing too crazy. So, you got something then share it, remember judgement free up in the Fritz Home.

Us mamas have no choice but to stay strong and push ahead. I don’t want my kids to think I am weaker my husband that he’s at it alone. However, it’s not always easy; can anyone relate? The management of our lives a s working moms and wives with all the branches coming out of the trunk seems impossible. Are any moms not taking medication (sedatives) to balance the stress and anxiety?? If you are the type of mom that manages through excerxise, god bless you, and I have immense jelousy. Due to my health right now that’s not an option, walking without my knees giving out on me is what I’m dedicated too at this moment. I know I'm like a 90 year old yenta!

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Enjoy the weekend!!