This week: is it over yet?!

It’s been a rough week; fell on my ass several times just trying to walk up one step or walking through the damn house. Pathetic right? Yes, of course it hurts, lots of bruises, but mentally the struggle is real. Do you ever feel like the week is moving at a snails pace on a daily basis….. How do you keep on movin down the road?!

I did dye my hair purple because it’s something I can control….. also why the hell not?!

This week has been a bit rough, especially with how many times I've taken a tumble. Each fall chips away at my pride and hits home about where I'm at right now. It’s getting a little scary—my body feels like it’s just not on my side anymore. Ever felt that overwhelming sense of helplessness? I've been thinking it might be time to dive into meditation or some calming techniques. Got any good suggestions or podcasts that could help?

Back when I was working, meditation was a no-go for me. My mind was always racing, and I’d keep notepads by my bed to jot down thoughts in the middle of the night—totally wild, right? I just didn’t have the mental space for anything quiet. But now that I’m at home, I feel like I can finally give these techniques another shot. I’m all about finding non-drug solutions, and I really think this could be a great way to improve my mental state. Less anxiety and frustration would probably give my body and mind some freedom from their current imprisoned state!

The ramp my husband set up for me….. it’s our unused diving board, creative right?!

One of the toughest things about this long journey is watching my kids see me struggle. It impacts them every day; when I stumble, they call for Tom to help me up and stick by my side. Even my 4-year-old tries to cheer me up. No one, especially kids, should have to see their parent like this. We're meant to be the strong ones, the superheroes who are always there for them. Instead, I feel like a burden and a mess every single day. So now, when I fall or I'm not feeling great, I do my best to keep it together and reassure them that I'm okay, even if I'm really scared.

Nap time on the couch with mommy!

Today’s blog is a bit of a downer, and I apologize for the absence of humor. I’m just not in a funny mood this week. It feels like reality is hitting hard right now. I really appreciate my support system and everyone who’s been checking in on me and cheering me on, one fall at a time. 🤣🤦🏻‍♀️

Sometimes, the weeks and days can drag on, right? That's just how life goes. We’ve got to keep it together and manage things at home, even when we’re feeling like we’re barely hanging on.

One fall at a time is this week’s goal.