Kindness VS Honesty

Well, today was a real rollercoaster of a day, or should I say a rollercoaster straight into a

pile of mud! Dealing with the Sarcoid and a chest infection felt like having a tiny green Mucinex man throwing a party on my chest. I mean, come on, I don't need more weight on my chest than my own... assets, right?

Nebulizer Time...no strength to stand!

So, on top of the usual work grind, I also got to enjoy the "thrilling" experience of a full-day deposition (lucky me, right?). I mean, who doesn't love a good marathon session of legal back-and-forth? And hey, in between all the legal drama, I managed to sneak in some quality time with my trusty nebulizer. Because nothing says "fun day" like a six-hour deposition with a side of breathing treatments. I was able to sneak in some yogurt with granola and my current fav, matzo with vegan butter; only the best going in this swollen prednisone Pillsbury dough girl.

Dr Time....Add on the Meds!

I spent the entire day jazzing up my imaginary hot pink superhero cape, giving myself a pep talk like, "Oh yeah, time to unleash the beast within!" to tackle all the hurdles of the day. And then, as the day trudged on, the hamster wheel in my noggin was spinning at a pace that can only be described as...well, let's just say it was on a siesta. But then it hit me - dealing with tough times is just as important as breezing through the good ones, especially when my little minions are watching my every move. Gotta show 'em that if mom can handle it, they can too! 😄

My teenage detective immediately cracked the case of my epic fail of a day. My face was like a billboard screaming, "Warning: grumpy human on the loose." Anyone who damned to cross my path today must have felt the fiery wrath of the volcano I was morphing into. I've always tried to be kind, loving and respectful, because let's be real, we're all sailing in the same crazy boat, fighting our own battles like lunatics. Sprinkling kindness around can-do wonders, but boy, is it easier said than done, especially for us so-called grown-ups. It's easy to preach kindness, but executing it? That's a whole different ball game! How on earth do other moms keep the kindness code intact amidst the chaos?!?

Tea for the chest made by my Teen....maybe she does love me?!

I'm juggling more balls than a clumsy circus clown, all while popping pills for Heart Failure, Sarcoid, and a Chest Infection like it's my daily multivitamin. These meds turn my brain, joints, muscles, and emotions into a chaotic rollercoaster ride that challenges my ability to practice what I preach to my kids! 🤹‍♂️💊 Let's face it, days like today make me hit the pause button to process it all and take time to give myself a pep talk, yes, I speak to myself out loud, do you not? I take the time to remind myself of the importance of still being a role model for my little humans, even when life feels like a giant suckfest. They depend on us for stability, and let me tell you, it's a tough gig always being on call 24/7. Right? Like whoever said, be a mom, its easy if full of crap. Being a mom REQUIRES Tequila.

I'm not always the picture of grace, just ask my husband... sometimes my brain blurts out the truth before I can even hit the mute button. There are times I am sorry about it and other times; shit it feels amazing to put someone in their place. Can you relate? What's the balance between "honesty is the best policy" and "kindness matters?"

Here I am, daily, trying to be a mom superhero, battling Heart Failure and Sarcoid of the bones, all while juggling experimental treatments that make me feel like a lab rat on steroids, chemo meds, and whatnot. But hey, no biggie, because my kids are my number one priority! Easy, right? Wrong! Let me tell you, talking the talk is a walk in the park, but walking the walk? Now that's a whole different shit show that requires a lot of tequila, which too bad on my meds, I am deprived of! 🦸‍♂️💥👨‍👧‍👦

In the end, today's blog is a lot of bitching, yes, but also a search for advice from other mamas out there. We all have to put up with a bunch of jackasses every single day on top of the daily struggles of mom life, but please share your tips, is it just practice that teaches us how to stay cool, calm and collected? Do you mediate? Is there an amazing book to read? Or let's be real is it the therapists we pay weekly to confide in? (Don't forget the Psychiatrist too)

So, after the big election drama last night, I just gotta get this off my chest - Kindness, oh Kindness, where art thou? Seriously, it's bugging the heck outta me! I mean, who cares which way you voted, I've got bigger problems to deal with, like deciding what to have for dinner. But can we all just take a moment to ponder the curious case of Kamala and her disappearing act? How does she manage to ghost her own supporters who waited outside FOREVER just to give her a high-five? Why no "Thank you" or a simple wave? As the VP, shouldn't she at least give a little nod to the nation? It's like she vanished into thin air! Come on, Kamala, show some love! How are we supposed to teach our kiddos about Kindness when our leaders are MIA in the decency department? Parenting these days is like trying to herd cats, I tell ya! We need more respect, honesty, and kindness in this world, starting from the top down. Step it up, Kamala, the ladies are counting on you to bring the class back!